The kingdom of me
no, let's call it
the persondom of me,
an unholy place, sometimes
bordering on the holy,
but always somewhere
to call home,
a space where it is possible
to be comfortable
in aloneness.
I cannot speak for
the persondom of you
or you,
though I wish I could;
I'm sure it is as fraught
and as wonderful
as my own,
and if I could steal
in your back door,
I'm sure I would find
a garden filled with roses,
and perhaps fields of lavender
stretching as far
as the eye can see.
or would your garden lean
more towards zen
a beauty of absence
which happens only when hearts
beat in accordance with
nature's sure intent?
Perhaps the moment I enter,
I would feel the holiness
of your garden,
and want to stay,
perhaps forever.
Is that what you fear,
that I might take up residence,
ask for accommodation?
Is that why you have never
invited me in?
Of course, if you did invite me,
I would bring parts of my persondom
to share.
You could teach me how
to perceive meaning
in your structured absences,
and if you allowed,
I could place an imagined rose
beside an absent stone.
I know these thoughts might be
worrying for you,
but can you imagine
the irresistible possibilities
in this sharing,
how different languages
could anoint the air
with a harmony of syllables?
Perhaps, as Frost intoned,
fences make good neighbbours,
and perhaps they do,
perhaps they bind us
to a singularity,
an immutable history
we've long embraced,
but perhaps too
our arms are wider
than we know
and we would discover,
on the other side of any fence,
a symmetry,
and, in spite of all imagined change,
a mirror image
of what we already know.
Could we recognize,
in each other's rituals,
echoes of our own?
Could you imagine,
your persondom and mine,
and all the others
together?
Could you imagine us
as friends?
Could you imagine us all
growing old together?